December 2009
all I really want is one day, just one day. One day that I know I couldn’t forgot, just so I can touch him, and I can kiss him, and so I can feel how warm he is and how good he smells when I hug him, and so I can run my fingers through his hair, and so I can feel what his body feels like against mine, and I can hear him laugh and see him smile, and feel his fingers wrapped around mine, and...
I’m sorry I point out my insecurities, I’m aware that you hate it, and you try to joke about it to make it go away, but that just makes me feel worse, I wish you understood that, but you don’t, you know that you’re amazing and that I’m not going to stop liking you anytime soon, I sadly don’t have that same privilege, especially when you say things like our age...
I almost don’t wanna love you anymore, it sucks more than anything that I can’t have you when we both want each other, it hurts cause I just want you, nothing else.
You spend twelve years of your life trying to learn how to live, but every time you try to live in those twelve years you’re told you’re wrong. Then everyone you’ve grown to love is taken away, and scattered. That’s what they should teach you. How to say good-bye.
“Saying good-bye isn’t the hard part, it’s what we have to leave...”
I don’t want someone who does everything I ask, I don’t want someone who will buy me whatever I desire, I don’t want someone who will show me off to their friends, I don’t want someone who tells me I’m beautiful, I just want someone who thinks that I matter
“Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to learn from the...”
– Douglas Adams
Teenagers.
What’s the point in saying something solely for the purpose of trying to get people interested in you, just so you can ignore that person? Are people really that messed up, oh I believe they are.
hmmm. Man’s greatest desire is to survive. It really doesn’t make sense, if there’s something better, why would everyone subconciously want to stay alive then. if there is a heaven,
why does everyone want to stay here so bad?
There’s the people who try to be all the same, Then there’s the one’s that try to be different, see here’s the thing, they’re all really the same, even if they’re trying to be different, the problem is that they’re all trying to be something, and I’m just me
“i’m just your under average dramatic teenager. i’m not happy with my...”
I’m just going to apologize now for all the posting I’m doing/going to do,
plus going through my photo’s so I apologize for all the one’s I’m going to post xD
I freaking miss you.
reading how happy we were, is just making me sad now.
I miss when you said things like “missing u soo badly just reminded me that id be heart broken without you” after not talking to me for like 20 hours.
now when I say I might not talk to you for days you say okay.
I miss you.
I was reading our old conversations and it made me so happy =)
we were so close, and then when you said you didn’t feel close to me lately, I knew what you were talking about, but compared to now, it was nothing.
“The most powerful weapon on earth is the human soul on fire”
“Our society is run by insane people for insane objectives. I think we’re...”
“Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can break my spirt, break my...”
“I couldn’t go to sleep, because I didn’t have a reason to wake up.”